Bitter

Bitter

Meeting up with Pastor Ning Fen yesterday helps me alot. I feel very bitter about life, very very bitter. 那种＂苦＂是很难形容。我觉得我没有对不起上帝，我多年来忠心服侍，但换来的是一堆堆失望。妈妈、弟弟、等等。I felt that life is so unfair! Ya 人生本来就是不公平。

Yes there're miracles in life. And I had to depend on these miracles now, or else I will be leaving this "faith". Mao Mao, is perhaps my greatest miracle.

I prayed for 3 things when I wanted a cat:
1) cheerful
2) good adaptability
3) healthy

Getting the cat was tough. I visited 3 cats' rescuer, went to 1 cat adoption drive. But all was in vain. The strict adoption process makes it not possible. I was about to give up, when Vic my colleague asked if I want to pick up the stray cat downstairs her house. It was my last hope.

So ya, we kidnapped the stray cat. The cat cried for 2 weeks throughout the night, giving me sleepless nights. I almost become a panda and died. And those weeks, I observed. The cat has adapted fast. He doesn't hide, most of the time, we can touch him and played with him. (Cheerful) The most absurd thing was that we can put a harness on him. Lol. I read online that putting a harness on a cat is extremely difficult. But surprisingly, we did it with ease. (good adaptability). After 3weeks, I brought him to the vet, and he cleared all the check up. =)) I am so happy!!!! There, he fits all my prayer request! Amazed!
传道说：这是上帝给我的确据。That God is with me, and it is rare that God gives 一件实物作为确据。And it represents that God is with me and always with me.

The second thing which ps nf brought up was that the fantastic results of my student is also a reward from God. And it is also his way of affirming my hard work.

Perhaps, Ps Nf is right. I don't know, I really don't know. I just know that Mao Mao is my greatest joy at this moment of my life.