It has been a long time since I last typed something.. Life has been a little too challenging and most of the times, I am lost for words. Since I am turning 30 soon, I decided to pen down my thoughts...
1. I need to save.
Savings has been very challenging. Being the sole breadwinner of the house means that every penny goes to every little thing in the house, including toilet paper. It is difficult. But I need to try, I really need to. At the age of 30, I need to have deep pockets for times of emergency.
2. I need to have an interest and be serious about it.
Before 20, I used to draw, then I turned it into a profession, then I lost my interest. Later, in my early 20s, my interest became reading religious books and attending sermons, but reading religious books does not make one more religious. And religion cannot be an interest. So then, I dropped it. Then I fell in love with backpacking. But I can no longer do it due to the aging one in the house. Over the past one week, I read about some famous women online. They all have great professions, and they have one thing in common - they have an interest and they are really good at it. One is serious about sports and will go trekking every now and then. Another is a lawyer, she is really good at making quilts. And there is a business woman who is good at skiiing and golf. Ping loves languages, and she has been taking French and Italian. Vic found her new interest of aromatic oil.
So at this moment now, I have no interest in anything.
I seriously need to find a new interest and be serious about it. And I must be good at it too. I have no idea. Really.
Maybe cooking? But it is strange to turn cooking "an interest".
Maybe a language? But I have no intention to go after any man from other countries.
Maybe .. Maybe.. Maybe..
I dont know.
3. 10 Years plan.
I want to know where I should be at the age of 40. And so I will work towards it. But I have no idea what I want to do yet. Working very hard is just a way of life, is just because I want to be abled to face God and say "hey I didn't waste my time away". But I do not know what I want to do 10 years down the road. Perhaps this blog will still be here 10 years later. At least, I hope so. I can then reflect on those choices which I have made.
People has been asking me to pray about marriage. But what is this "marriage prayer"? Some prayed but are still single. Some wanted to stay single but their course of life changed. I like this line alot - "Better one person feeling lonely than two people miserable because they cannot adapt to each other, I figured."
I think it is more practical to pray for an eventful life. A life which God favors.
Dear Lord,
As I am 30 days away from 30,
I pray that You will guide me.
I pray for 3 things.
Firstly, I pray that I learn to use my money wisely. Save a portion wisely as well as spend a portion wisely.
2ndly, I pray that an interest will find me. This interest will bless me, and will also bless the people around me.
3rdly, Lord grant me wisdom and guide my every step. That the path I take now, will lead me to the place I should be at the age of 40.
Lord,
please remove moments of loneliness,
moments of jealousy,
moments of greed.
In all my paths, guide me and teach me.
Do not forsake me in the next 10years of my life.
And place love, kindness and thanksgiving in my heart always.
All these I pray in Jesus name.
Amen
5th April 2015
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